Into The Future
Kind of a title that may prove to be too powerful for this post. Just popped into my mind so I went with it to see where I will end. I feel I have been on a pointless journey these past few months. Loosing my job, taking a rather frustrating contract position then months of nothing. Not necessarily nothing but the feeling of letting everyone down. Not having a job for someone like me gives quite a feeling of failure. “You are not a MAN” “A real man would have a job the next week”. Those and more ran through my head each day. Today I received my second job offer. Finally! But now I have these feelings that it just isn’t enough. Both are offering low pay, much less than what I made in the past. Benefits are not even that great. I am in the negotiation phase slowing building them up to something comfortable for my family and me. I was hoping to be getting more than what I left my last place at but it seems that I will have to make up some ground in the coming years.
Moving off track a bit. Many people kept telling me how much better I can be doing, that I should start my own business. Now it seems some are retracting those statements. Telling me I should grow more or learn more. Now I am not saying I do not need to grow or learn (who doesn’t) but it feels like a slap in the face.
I do not know what the future has in store for me. Next month could be next year or ten years from now. It is all empty. Not empty that nothing is there, I just do not have any idea of what will be there.
Here’s to the journey!
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